My perfect man.

(I've often wondered when my chance was going to come along. I just didn't know that I would give up on my list for you, and look where that got me. No where. You can't have my heart anymore, and I refuse to think about you anymore. This chicka is moving on to better and bigger things!)

Hey there! So I have come up with a list of what I want in a man. It is more of a protection thingy so I won't get hurt, I've decided that I won't let myself get hurt again. Therefore, my man has to have all of these characteristics or I'm going to stay a bachelorette for the rest of my life. It's true. I won't settle for anything less than the best. ;)

Physical
*Tall
*Blonde
*Blue or Green eyes
*cleft chin
*beautiful smile and at least one dimple
*nice hands, they have to fit perfectly with mine
*has to be able to dance, and has to love it.
*has to where glasses

Personality
*stubborn
*likes cats more than dogs
*Is funny, but doesn't isn't pushy. Doesn't bring people down
*likes to smile (for I would want to see him smile all the time)
*is kind and generous
*would be a good father and has to have the same beliefs as I do.
*has to be passionate and has to yell at me when I want him to.
*has to like to read, and he has to enjoy books
*Has to be smart, and not remind everyone about it.

Other things will be added when found!

Hush Hush.

"I'm sorry for the way I let go of everything i wanted when you came along.."


Why is everything going down?
What’s with this frown?
I don’t like this--feeling like a clown.
If you can’t help me, I’ll just drown.
Let me put on this gown,
And let’s go out on the town.

You are my weakness,
But all I see is bleakness.

In my heart is this ache,it’s for you, and I want to break
I really hope this isn’t fake.
There’s really too much at stake.
Please let’s get back to the wake.

I’m in such pain,
Pull the drain,
Let it rain
Don’t get on the plane!
I’ll use my brain,
(I hope I’m sane,)
Please, I’ve been slain.
Save me, I know I’m vain
Let’s meet at Main.

Ill wait here forever,
It’s not too clever,
Don’t let it be never
I don’t want it to sever,
Pull the lever!
I’ll get through this endeavor.


I miss you. I'm so sorry, please don't leave me all alone. What we had was magic over the dates of June 4, 5, and 6th. I think...I miss you.

Minding My Intelligence

A murky cloud wrestles the mind,

Suffocating acts warp,

Scared cogitations twist.

Fogged and perverted,
An incoherent whisper.
Spiders and newts.
Every crawly thing,
but this is worse.

Rejection, loss, madness, anger.

Pushed into one's skull,
wishing only eradication.

Daunting nightmares,
containing unholy creatures of deep.

Anything to see that face,
take off the mask,
and peer into thy soul!

What shall we see?
Physiognomy, or abstruse images?

Touch of they hand,
slowly caressing the ache.

Sound of they heartbeat,
calming my agonies.

Why should I acquiesce to this cruel begging?

Live in a harmony unknown to mankind,
dwelling a rapturous delirium, waiting for thy
love to be returned every day and night?

Who say, has ever witnessed such nefariousness admission?

Obscurity clouds thy mind again,
They're realizing that expansive consideration,
would only be an exigency to them all.

Pernicious strife is what I am bound to live for,
the rest of my life.