Planets align.

Help me,
help me, I've been
Running out side again.

I've been trying', trying
to cry.

I've been dieing, dieing
inside.

Tell me how you feel....

Lying under the stars,
there's a magical thing,
bizarre.

There's a wonderland,
fairytale.

I've been waiting so long.

(Chorus){Help me,
Help me, I've been,
Running outside again.

I've been, trying, trying
to cry.

I've been dieing, dieing,
inside.
Tell me how you feel...]

Green Dresses, flowers, bouquets,
One smile, then we're gone.
Stars twinkle down,
Tell me why, why, why?

(Chorus)

There's an emptiness filling the air,
a coldness,
no time to prepare.
I'm sorry,
All I'm feeling is despair
I'm missing you so, oh, much....

(Chorus)

Roses, dead and decayed.
Reminding me so much that day,
When the sun hit your cheek just right,
There's nothing I'd rather say....

(Chorus)

I love you, I love you, I do.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, It's true.
Teardrops or raindrops will do
I swear my heart to you....

(Chorus)

A kiss goodbye,
one time.
A shatter, a break, collide.
I'll never get through...

(Chorus)

plausible

"Write about it." he says.

"But It's impossible to even write down how I feel about him. I couldn't put it into words..."

"You can. I've seen you do it." but then he walked away. He was showing me that he believed in me, like he did, over and over again.

He was tall and dark
The smile of an optimist
eyes of a tiger
A heart she wanted, needed maybe.

He saw her as someone to be taught; a pupil.

A short, chubby girl with sad beautiful eyes.
a beautiful smile.

he'd see her in the halls and speak.
hearts beating fast,
she'd try not to squeak.

She just wanted to know him.
to know his fears and dreams
his past, present, and future.

but he was twelve years older,

illegal as it was,
this love of hers,
she would gladly pay any
price for.

"But somethings, are just not possible."

Anything is possible.

12:12 AM January 5, 2010

Lying in the dark,
a tear escapes down her cheek,
but she flicked it away.

She was happy, wasn't she?

No one could know
about...
her secret ~pain~
"Just leave me alone" her mind screamed
"Please." She begged, as another tear slid away.

She felt stuck in reverse
lost in words

Why couldn't she be...normal?

"I am happy!" she pleaded
she would never tell anyone
she would fix herself.
It was a new year.
a new life.
A new her.

If only it were someone else.

I'm scared. (He's come knocking three times already.) It's five o'clock in the morning, and when he left after the third time, I locked my door. Such a piddley little thing between us. I know he could break it if he wanted to. I'm laying in bed, praying that he won't come back. I'm too scared, too vulnerable. My heart doesn't belong to him, and I would be betraying myself if I let anything happen. Maybe if he was E, then I wouldn't be able to control myself. Instead of saying, "Get out!" I would've said, "Lay down next to me." That's why I'm scared. That's why I'm sad.
But, Alas! Mother has come down stairs to insist them on to slumber. But I know he'll be back...I'm scared.

Unrequited Love?

Is it possible to be addicted to a person? No, I'm not obsessed, well, maybe. But I haven't seen this one single person in weeks, and I'm being driven nuts. I keep dreaming about him, but I'm not day-dreaming. I mean, of course I day dream. BUT this is the real thing. The dreams that my subconscious comes up with to entertain me while I sleep. And I wanna cry. Because I don't see him everyday. Sometimes, I want to just walk up to him, just look at him, and I know I'd make it through the day. I wanna walk up and say, "I've changed. I'm not the slacker that left you over a month ago." But it's not true. I'm the same person, no wait. That's not true either. I'm always changing, sometimes for the better, but nearly always for the worst.
I wish I was brave enough to just walk up to him, grab him, and kiss him. ACK! Maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic, and the love that I believe in doesn't exist anymore. The kind where you would cross oceans to see your love. Or the kind where you die for them, in hopes that they can live. The kind where you wake up every morning saying, "Ah! I get to see the love of my universe today." The kind that all you think of is ways to make them laugh, or picture their smile over and over again. And I've heard people say, "Everyone leaves eventually." But no, not if you keep the memories of them, then they never leave. You'll always have a piece of them. I know that, because I've experienced it.

AHHH. It's one part of my second book. Muahahaha sequals!!

James shifted uncomfortably. "Yes. I'm in love with you. You're beautiful, smart, and probably the funniest person I've ever met. So...Will you marry me?"
Georgiana huffed. "I'm sorry, but I believe I have the inability to love. I've been hurt so much, my heart is pretty solid."
She turned toward the window, more willing to face the world than to face him.
"You men have it so easy." She nearly snarled. "Women are much more forgiving. They can handle the beer gut, and balding, and guess what? She'll still love him because of how he makes her feel. His stupid little jokes, and the way he compliments her choice of eyeshadow. How his eyes twinkle when he talks about his favorite book, or something that made him glad to be a man." She paused, slowly turning towards James. "But a man needs a tight ass and a skinny waist to feel secure." Her usual bright, alive, green eyes were filled with a cold sadness.
"I take back what I said earlier. I can love whole-heartily, but I've seen too many sunrises alone. I've been hit too many times. What bugs me most though, is how you're probably the best thing that's ever happened to me." Her eyes fell to the floor as he inched close to her.
"Georgi. Any feeling that you have for me, I assure you, I have them too." His hands gripped her shoulders. "I'm scared. I can barely breath around you, and I can't sleep. It takes me forever to get dressed in the morning because I want to look my best for you, because I know you would want the best of me."
Georgi's lip started to quiver.
Startled, James asked, "What's the matter? Did I say something wrong?"
She shook her head. "It's just, that nobody's ever looked at me like the way you just did. The beautiful things you just said. I don't know how I ever found anyone quite like you." She looked into his dark eyes, and she knew her answer.
She nodded, a tear slipped down her face. "Only promise you'll never leave me."
James smiled and threw his arms around her. "I love you."
"I love you." Georgi whispered.