January 26th, 2011

As I descend the stairs one by one, a thump enters my ears and the soles of my shoes. But only one thing plays over and over again in my hollow mind: you.

I slowly strip; as if to tease an audience. But as I look past my stage and into the darkness of my room, I find you not.

In here there lies no peace; nothing to stop this agony. No water quenches this thirst, no substance cures this hunger. No gigolo to appease my fancy.

I'm afraid that this will not stop until I have you. Even then, it might never stop.

My worst fear might be realized...
I'm alone.

My Sailing Days

Fog forms over the Mountains,
lying our heads on the rocks.
I'd whisper silently,
"I like you, I like you."
And you'd hear me...

You're five hundred miles away
right now,
And I'm thinking about your smile
right now
Oh how lovely you are

Sun rises over the ocean,
Jumping off the dock.
I'd look at you,
You'd look at me and
we'd feel like that was our destiny

You're five hundred miles away
right now,
And I'm thinking about your eyes
right now.
Oh how lovely you are...

The wind slaps at the sails,
You're looking for me,
You're calling for me,
But I am no where to be found...

You're five hundred miles away
right now,
And I'm thinking about your hands
right now.
Oh how lovely you are....

Separation leads to insanity
While arguments cause bitterness
We don't remember the joyfulness
of being together.
And baby, its killing' me.

You're five hundred miles away
right now,
And I'm thinking about your voice
right now,
Oh how lovely you are....

Pouring my heart out
You hug me
How I wanna tell you
I wish You love me
But you won't let that happen...

You're five hundred miles away right now
And I'm wishing you could be here somehow.
I'm missing your face, I'm missing your touch, oh so much and
you'll never know it....

Brief reunions on windy days.
We've changed so much but we're still the same.
We'll never forget how we looked that day, talking of days gone by.
I'll catch you looking at me, but I won't mind. But now...

You're five hundred miles away and I'm thinking about your laugh,
I'm thinking about your body right now. I'm thinking about you right now.

But that was five months ago and I'm nearly done.
You've changed too much for me and I'm not the same.
Maybe one day we'll reunite, but now I'm fine being alone.
Yes, I'm fine being alone.