How I am feeling at this point in time. I don't claim to be a poet, i'm not one with words.

It's killing me inside,
this thing I'm so willing to hide.

my soul feels ripped,
torn even

Guilt is smothering my faith,
wanton thoughts trap my heart.

Insecurities plague my mind

While unholy loneliness forms a bind.

Bitter and selfish
I'm afraid of what I've become.

Wretched within denial
I'm frightened to see you

Frightened to see how you've improved
--Without me....

I can't bare to hear about
summer love..
oh, only because I've had none...

You're gone,
ensnared in an island ecstasy,

I've been stuck,
dealing with the cuts...

My foreshadowed road...

I bear a cross,
I'm to weak to hold.


I'm scared.

Babble

Leave that shut!

Don't touch.

Broken words

s
m
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d glass .

(Sealed lips)

Run-down hero.

Eruption begins!

black and white

SMILE

frown

That's mine!

[Fools' gold.]

Darkness falls...

Always

First, it was just a drop.
Trickling down my back,
sending shivers through my body.

Then, it disappears, leaving streaks.

It comes and goes,
just like the wind.

Always breathing in the back of my mind.

It comes with the hunger,
it comes with the need.

Savagely, it takes over me.
Corrupting my spirit,
poisoning my heart.

Sometimes I wonder,
will I ever feel okay?

Maybe, this time,
if I keep a light on,
it will go away.

I mutter to myself,
as I turn the light on.

Never, never, never turn it off.
And I fall asleep.

I don't know

I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to say.
I don't know how I'll get through,
each and every day.

I don't know how to handle this news.
I don't know whether to cry,
or to bust a fuse.
I don't know what it'll be like,
I don't know if they'll understand.
I don't know if I'll be able to kyke,
I don't know if you're my man.

I don't know when I'll see you next.
I don't know his plan.

I don't know if your in my part.
I don't know...
But
I do know that,
all I do is pray,
asking that you won't go away...