Always

First, it was just a drop.
Trickling down my back,
sending shivers through my body.

Then, it disappears, leaving streaks.

It comes and goes,
just like the wind.

Always breathing in the back of my mind.

It comes with the hunger,
it comes with the need.

Savagely, it takes over me.
Corrupting my spirit,
poisoning my heart.

Sometimes I wonder,
will I ever feel okay?

Maybe, this time,
if I keep a light on,
it will go away.

I mutter to myself,
as I turn the light on.

Never, never, never turn it off.
And I fall asleep.