Really?

Today is Christmas. December 25, 2009. The time is 10:54 PM. It's been a great day.
Right now, at this moment in time, I feel so alone. I feel disappointed. I feel like punching someone, like throwing up, and possibly, like praying.
I asked for toothpaste for Christmas, and I got it. I got probably the most expensive Christmas gifts, but I still feel like something is missing. (Maybe I'm just a spoiled brat.)
I'm in love with someone who I can't have, someone who it's illegal for me to be in love with, and someone who doesn't even consider me a friend. No one can ever know about my little infatuation, so because no one reads my blog I'm choosing to post it here.
But to settle my mind, I've chosen this one boy to distract me, but I actually really like him. I wish he would just give me some attention! I'm the one who has to text him, and talk to him. I don't understand why he can't just come out and tell me that he likes me! I told him! ARRG!
My life is so messed up right now, but yet, it's not. My life is simple. I have no job, my only worry, really, is school. That's my life. Lame? Yeah, I agree.
So here I sit, feeling sorry for myself when I shouldn't be. Tomorrow, I'm going to go to Barnes and Noble and spend my $50 gift card, and have a blast doing it, while not feeling guilty! Yeah! Woohoo!
But I'm bored. I want to....I won't say it on here. ;) I'm such a naughty girl.