Talking to the Cracks

Ash skies plow over my soul with the inability to see my future

Sending cold shivers down my aching spine: They openly mock me

Suffocating loneliness rides in hot air balloons and infects my dreams
But only after seeing him again with the psycho bitch he left me for

I sometimes pretend to understand the world around me; breathing in the pain and suffering
But looking into the night sky and remembering how small we are helps me to hope

One day I will defeat the sickening poisonous weed that sends its roots to do its bidding.
I'll whisper, I don't need you and for a moment, be happy

But just because superman died doesn't mean I'm going to stop saving the world

Word by word like brick by brick again and again I'll help rebuild the only thing that really matters: you

Upon the Liar's Head

Into the tiger's eyes She'll dream

as if falling through a gleam

Sea tales and green whales

They're everything

The thought of you escaped its hold

Again her mouth is always too bold

Evil mermaids caught by time

Skin on skin is much more sublime

Granting her the dismissal

a heavy heart caught on thistles

Tearing straight through her chest

It ripped out the rest

But you know what?

Now she's feeling her best

Sun rises slowly with each passing day

soon she'll feel the sea spray

Gold flecks flicker down from the moon

Reaching forth with outstretched hands

The moment was quite opportune

One day she'll understand

And be again, one with the land.

My Unseen Companion

Mist flecks the grasses and flowers bend around me. I stumble past secret worlds and silent films into the land of the unwanted. They place a wreath of sweat over me as I enter.

Foggy forms press us together and I do all I can not to fall into your arms. You pull at my mind and struggle to hold my heart.

Blood pounding, twigs snap underneath us, I wrestle you to the ground until you break. I am victorious.

It's not for a while till the clouds clear and I see you for what you really are: weakness.

January 26th, 2011

As I descend the stairs one by one, a thump enters my ears and the soles of my shoes. But only one thing plays over and over again in my hollow mind: you.

I slowly strip; as if to tease an audience. But as I look past my stage and into the darkness of my room, I find you not.

In here there lies no peace; nothing to stop this agony. No water quenches this thirst, no substance cures this hunger. No gigolo to appease my fancy.

I'm afraid that this will not stop until I have you. Even then, it might never stop.

My worst fear might be realized...
I'm alone.

My Sailing Days

Fog forms over the Mountains,
lying our heads on the rocks.
I'd whisper silently,
"I like you, I like you."
And you'd hear me...

You're five hundred miles away
right now,
And I'm thinking about your smile
right now
Oh how lovely you are

Sun rises over the ocean,
Jumping off the dock.
I'd look at you,
You'd look at me and
we'd feel like that was our destiny

You're five hundred miles away
right now,
And I'm thinking about your eyes
right now.
Oh how lovely you are...

The wind slaps at the sails,
You're looking for me,
You're calling for me,
But I am no where to be found...

You're five hundred miles away
right now,
And I'm thinking about your hands
right now.
Oh how lovely you are....

Separation leads to insanity
While arguments cause bitterness
We don't remember the joyfulness
of being together.
And baby, its killing' me.

You're five hundred miles away
right now,
And I'm thinking about your voice
right now,
Oh how lovely you are....

Pouring my heart out
You hug me
How I wanna tell you
I wish You love me
But you won't let that happen...

You're five hundred miles away right now
And I'm wishing you could be here somehow.
I'm missing your face, I'm missing your touch, oh so much and
you'll never know it....

Brief reunions on windy days.
We've changed so much but we're still the same.
We'll never forget how we looked that day, talking of days gone by.
I'll catch you looking at me, but I won't mind. But now...

You're five hundred miles away and I'm thinking about your laugh,
I'm thinking about your body right now. I'm thinking about you right now.

But that was five months ago and I'm nearly done.
You've changed too much for me and I'm not the same.
Maybe one day we'll reunite, but now I'm fine being alone.
Yes, I'm fine being alone.

Planets align.

Help me,
help me, I've been
Running out side again.

I've been trying', trying
to cry.

I've been dieing, dieing
inside.

Tell me how you feel....

Lying under the stars,
there's a magical thing,
bizarre.

There's a wonderland,
fairytale.

I've been waiting so long.

(Chorus){Help me,
Help me, I've been,
Running outside again.

I've been, trying, trying
to cry.

I've been dieing, dieing,
inside.
Tell me how you feel...]

Green Dresses, flowers, bouquets,
One smile, then we're gone.
Stars twinkle down,
Tell me why, why, why?

(Chorus)

There's an emptiness filling the air,
a coldness,
no time to prepare.
I'm sorry,
All I'm feeling is despair
I'm missing you so, oh, much....

(Chorus)

Roses, dead and decayed.
Reminding me so much that day,
When the sun hit your cheek just right,
There's nothing I'd rather say....

(Chorus)

I love you, I love you, I do.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, It's true.
Teardrops or raindrops will do
I swear my heart to you....

(Chorus)

A kiss goodbye,
one time.
A shatter, a break, collide.
I'll never get through...

(Chorus)

plausible

"Write about it." he says.

"But It's impossible to even write down how I feel about him. I couldn't put it into words..."

"You can. I've seen you do it." but then he walked away. He was showing me that he believed in me, like he did, over and over again.

He was tall and dark
The smile of an optimist
eyes of a tiger
A heart she wanted, needed maybe.

He saw her as someone to be taught; a pupil.

A short, chubby girl with sad beautiful eyes.
a beautiful smile.

he'd see her in the halls and speak.
hearts beating fast,
she'd try not to squeak.

She just wanted to know him.
to know his fears and dreams
his past, present, and future.

but he was twelve years older,

illegal as it was,
this love of hers,
she would gladly pay any
price for.

"But somethings, are just not possible."

Anything is possible.